not again...

I got a sm from an unknown number again this afternoon asking me how am i. I keep asking the sender who is he but only after a while then i got a respond saying "because of u i was inside for 1.5 years" i was stunt when i saw that. Dont tell me that is my one and only dear Ken?? And the next moment my mind drift back to 1 year ago when he promise to meet me but end up never call me or sms me anymore. At the time i was actually very worried abt him because i keep calling his friend number which he is temporatory using, but the phone was off. At that time i was still thinking "dont tell me he kena lock up" after i saw the message just now i confirm that the instint that i have one year ago was right. I nearly faint when this thots strike me. I am just a useless bum.

Alright back to the sms, i continue to ask who is he. the next message was "the guy who leves you" thunder + lightning...
So i keep asking.. "Are you Ken" again no more respond. then after a long while message came in from the same number again. Asking me alot of silly quentions like which ken u are looking for and things like that. then he say if i answer his questions then he tell me who is he.

he ask me whether i mind to have some new friends and whether do i have any bf or not. At that point of time i really dont feel answer coz its already tell me the number dont belong to Ken. but still i answer him, I dont know why.. maybe in my heart i still hoping that miracle will happened ba.

Then he finally he me he is Ken's friend. Huh?! not again... he use his friend number to message me again. nvm abt that anyway. So I keeping asking this-idiot-who-claims-that-his-name-is-kenneth-leonardo-foo where is ken, how he know ken, why ken use his number to message me, what have ken been doing all these years and blah blah...

then this idiot tell me he actually got the number from ken. well, i was quite angry at the moment. I am angry that ken give him my number.

anyway the conversation stop at 6 pm coz this idiot claims that his phone low batt cannot chat anymore.

I will find out more tomorrow...

A Broken Heart

We have all had our hearts broken at least once in our lives. There has been that one person that we have loved with all our heart and has not returned that love. When you wake up to that reality you feel like your world has shattered. You feel like you will never love that way again.That person is all you think of and becomes your world. It feels likeyou will never love that way again. You ask yourself why is this happening to me? Am I not good enough? What's wrong with me?

Then, as time goes by, you get the answers to your questions. You begin to realize that it all happened for a reason. You then realize that the person is not the one for you. The more you analyze the person you begin to see the differences. You realize that you don't know that person like you thought you did and they don't know you. Then comes the understanding that you deserve someone who will love, cherish, appreciate you and never take you for granted.

Once you reach this point, the pain of never having him starts to minimize. It becomes a learning experience. You learn more aboutyourself. You learn to recognize the qualities you do want in a person.You learn that you will love again and even stronger.

When two people love each other mutually and give to each other freely that love grows and matures. If it were not for the experience of our broken heart and those lessons we learned along the way we would not be the loving, understanding people we become.

All past hurts teach us and mold us in becoming better people which give us the tools to create successful relationships. If you are experiencing a broken heart just remember even though you have been hurt and disappointed love will come again just HOPE!

Where is he?

I have been msn-ing and sms-ing Gaby for the past two weeks but no respond from him. Then suddenly last night i receive a msn msg from him asking me to help him find people buy his rolex watch. when i ask him why so many day also never reply me, he tell me he is not in singapore. But i jusy read his blog, he is only away during the weekend. Shit!! he bluff me. Why he have to bluff me?

Your girl went missing? serve u right. from the start i already have a feeling that she dont love u truely. but what is her motive i dont know. Gaby, from her look, she is not the type of women for u. U can hate me for saying this, but u will realise one day.