My back is hurting

My life at KWE sucks. I dont feel like going to work everyday. arhh.... i been at KWE almost a month, and my back hurt that long. I hurt my back for carrying too much heavy things. The pain is getting from bad to worst. these two days, i cant even turn my body while sleeping and morning i cant get out of my bed.

Poor Me..

Left with only one hundred dollar in my bank, still have one more weeks till pay day. Have not been taking salary since december last year after I left Alpha Shipping. This hundred is what i left after six months of "self-employed". Its really self employed, I do work but no salary, its my own company, whatever the incoming, i put under the company, i never take a single cent. I have living on my own saving. Sound miserable right?? I dont know how i live thru that six months, i really dont know, days just pass like that.

why do i lied??

Last night i told gaby the truth, today he stop calling me during his smoke break, he even have reduce his sms to me. I really hurt him this time.

I dont mean to lied to u gaby, i am sorry that i had hurt you. Pls forgive me ok? I lied to you because i have been cheated before by online friends, i told myself not to get too close to people i known online.

Gaby, I am sorry for hurting and lying to u. I dont mean it gaby. U fixed my broken heart but i broke your. Sorry...

I Hurt Him

I have hurt him....
its 4.30 am and i cant get to sleep.

After two months of living in my dreamland, I decided to tell him the truth. What actually made me to tell him the truth was that he been asking me to meet him but i couldnt meet him because i have been hiding something from him. Yesterday, he told me that he will forgive me if i have lied to him. He will accept it. today, i finally have the guts to tell him all the truth. i finally not longer need to hide. But i lost him. I have lost him. He say he will never forgive me, he say i have hurt him, he say he never lied to me before why must i lied to him. I dont know what to tell him and how to tell him. because he will never understand what i am going thru all these years.

Back to Working force

After almost two months of "resting", finally, i am back to the work force.

Hello everyone, have u all been wondering where have i been and how am i? Not to worried, I am fine and alive. I am sorry for the past two months if i didnt answer your call or reply your sms. Because I am not in a good mood. I been very down and depressed this period of time.

Resting is a better word to use i guess. I have not been doing anything, everyday, I only eat, sleep and play game. I dont have mood to work, neither do i have any mood to do anything ever since i close the company. And thanks Gaby, thanks for companying me thru these two months of darkness, thanks for companying for doing nothing but only play game. From the bottom of my heart, really thank you for brightening up my days.

Finally, today i start work. Today is my first day of work in KWE. Wish me all the best guys.